My Only Sin


3D printed resin, alcohol ink
10 x 12 x 10 cm
2023

What is it like to experience psychological pain and physical pleasure simultaneously? Can one alleviate or aggravate the other? How do the two experiences travel through our neurological pathways and leave either immediate or long lasting impact?

My Only Sin depicts a female figure who is masturbating while crying. The pleasure is at her fingertip, vibrating around her genitalia. The pain is in her heart, torturing her to tears. Both activities result in excreted liquid from her body.

In the movie Nymphomaniac, the main character masturbated to orgasm after her beloved father passed away. She said: “Perhaps the only difference between me and other people was that I’ve always demanded more from the sunset; more spectacular colors when the sun hit the horizon. That’s perhaps my only sin.”




© Ningxia Zhang 2024